When I'm Gone - Supernatural boys X Female!Reader

                                              

You find yourself lying down , feeling the weight come off from your shoulders as though all the stress had been lifted. You frown as you slowly lift yourself up , now sitting up , you started to stratch the back of your head. Your vision was still slightly blurred so you squint to try and see more clearly.

It felt like you had just woke up from a sleepless night , eyes heavy and you felt the earge to yawn. As you yawned and stretched your arms out , the atmosphere suddenly felt cold around you, you looked at your arms and notice you have goosebumps but no cold breathe leaving your mouth.

Looking around your surroundings , the walls were wallpapered in a greyish background with black outlines of patterns that interlocked with eachother in sections, there was damp in some areas of the wallpaper. The floor was wooden , jagged and dusty like it was old and hadnt been sweeped in a while, a few patches of eaten wood also accured by the door.

The door opposite you was hanging on the hinge at the bottom, the top hinge looked like it had been ripped out of the door frame as screws were hanging out of the screw holes.Splinters poked out the sides like it had been forced open. There was claw-like scratch marks on the walls going from the edge of the door to a rather large window by the left side of you that had been smashed from what looked like the inside of the room. The window had a few pieces of glass still attached to it but it was hanging off and dangerous.

There was a strong smell of damp that hit your nose as you stood up and examine your surroundings abit more. You notice a hand print on the wall , you touch it with your finger and it smudged into your skin as you rub your thumb against it.

"Blood" You said quietly as you wiped the smudge of blood onto your shirt. You realise that it was hard to remember how you got here in the first place , the place didnt seem familiar but there was images of a man wearing a trenchcoat , his blue eyes as bright as the moon at night , he was looking straight at you in your mind.

Something started to ring in your ear as you moved toward the window , you placed both of your hands on the window ledge , you clutched the window ledge tight , feeling more relaxed as you breathed in and out the fresh air from outside.

The ringing got abit louder , you try to ignor it but it gets worse and more glass fell from the window and almost cut your hand. The parts of window that was left shut on you , abit of glass fell on your hand and cut you slightly. As you held the wound the ringing noise became unbearable , you fell to the floor and curled up into a ball , cupping your ears with your hands.

You couldnt see anyone as you were facing the ground, you could hear the floor vibrating as someone came into the room behind you , they were shouting. You close your eyes and hope for it all to be over.

You feel a cold hand touch your cheek as you regain consciousness , you open your eyes to the man who was looking at you all this time but for real. He was holding you in his arms , his head turned to two other men by the door. The taller one was looking at you , you could see he had sympathy for you.

The handsome shorter one was looking around the room. "What happened here Cas?" He spoke. The man turned to the man with the trenchcoat who you now knew was called Cas. Cas ignored the man.

"Its okay" Cas whispered to you. You looked around with your eyes but your head stayed still. You start to panic because you didnt know what was wrong. Breathing hard now you felt like you were going to burst into tears.

The shorter man , noticed you now. You look back at him and he winks walking over to you. "Its alright sweetheart , I promise if we all get out of here alive I'll get us both a coffee" He said. You smiled with tears forming in your eyes. He turned to the taller one. "Your not invited"

Castiel rolled his eyes. "How do you feel?"

You gulp awkwardly as you look back at him. "I dont understand"

"Dean , go and look out for demons" The taller man demanded.

"Sammy" The shorter one who was now known as Dean mimicked the taller man who was now also known as Sam. The shorter one who was Dean , dragged his feet like a kid to the door. He pulled a pistol out of his back pocket and aimed it left and right.

Sam looks down at you. "Whats a young lady like you doing in a place like this?"

Cas gave Sam a blunt look. "Sam" He warned.

You looked from Cas to Sam , still looking confused. "I'm twenty one and I dont remember how I got here"

Sam looked suprised , he chuckled slightly. "Wow , twenty one. No offense but you look seventeen at least"

Castiel sighed. "Do you want to know whats wrong?"

You shook your head uneasily. "What happened?" Your eyes widen.

Castiel cleared his throat as Sam looked at Castiel and gave him some kind of look , as soon as he did that , Castiel moved away from you and Sam replaced him. He grabbed your hand and held it.

"You were being controlled , you had been lured in by some creatures that we cant explain at the moment" Sam said , he looked into your eyes as you looked back into his. You had some kind of thoughts about telling that Sam had been through alot just by looking into his eyes , she didnt know why but something was telling her that he wasnt the usual civillian as she suspected he was.

"Demons?" You ask. Sam looked at Castiel and Castiel squinted his eyes at him , shaking his head.

Sam looks back at you and you thought he was about to turn threatening but he breathed out easily and shyly smiled.

"How did you know" Sam found himself rubbing his thumb against your hand that he was holding.

You looked at your hand he was holding and felt abit uncomfortable. "I asumed because of what Dean said, I'm apparently good at picking up on what people say" You seem more confident in speaking to Sam now.

Sam nodded and let go of your hand. "What's your name?" he asked.

"My name is '________'" You reply , slightly blushing at him.

Sam chuckled again. "Nice name '________'"

Castiel stands looking onwards from the door , where Dean was still keeping a look out for demons. You stare at Castiel for a while , he seemed fasinated by the man outside the room they were in. He tilted his head slightly.

"Cas" Sam called. Castiel shook his head to get him out of what seemed like a daydream.

Castiel looked over at the two of you. "What is it?"

Sam looks at you awkwardly as he beginned to speak. "'_______' might know something if she recovers her memory , she could hang with us if she wanted to"

Castiel raised his eyebrow at Sam. "Hang?"

You laugh but then realise Cas was being serious , you try and cover your grin with your hands.

"Nevermind" Sam added.

"You still haven't answered my question about what happened to me?" You say. Sam and Castiel stare at you blankly. Meanwhile you could hear Deans heavy breathing from stress and anxiety hitting him as nothing was coming at him , you wouldnt normally notice Dean being like this when your around him because he wasnt so alone and looking for trouble.

"Dude!" Sam called over to Dean , looked at him with a frown and turned back to you. "I told you , remember. 'You were being controlled , you had been lured in by demons' dont you remember?" Sam was now looking at you in concern.

"Well , that doesnt cover it. You were acting like I was going to die!" You raised your voice alittle.

Castiel sighed and broke the silence. "I thought you did , thats why I was in your mind. Protecting you almost guiding you to heaven but then you heard my voice"

You frown , now looking at Castiel. "Voice?"

"That ringing in your ears that got louder and smashed the windows ...... that was me. You had blood on your hands , did you hurt yourself?"

You look at your hands , ignoring the fact that Castiel admitted he was the course of her nearly going deaf because he was in her mind. Your left hand was slightly more cut than your right one but you didnt realise how serious the cut was intill Castiel looked at your hands.

You find yourself turned to Castiels line of vision , Sam was now behind you and he put one of his hands on your right shoulder. You felt somehow safe with these strangers that you had only knew a short amount of time , it felt like you had known them a while back but obviously that wasnt the case.

You felt his cold touch your hands , you looked into his eyes as he examined them. "Its okay, your left hand is cut deeper than I expected but you should be alright" Castiel breathed out and then rubbed his hand against the sharp cut. Suprisingly it didnt hurt and you didnt feel like any of this was real.

"Am I dead?" You ask suddenly, Castiel looked up at you as he held your hands still.

"I'm sorry?" He asked. Letting go of your hands now and the cut was gone.

"I feel like somethings wrong , I didnt feel as much pain when I had the cut and I couldnt see my breathe when I breathed out" You added , you turned to Sammy who was now checking his breathe against his hand , you could clearly see his breathe.

"Could she be a ghost?" Asked Sam.

"She is standing right here" You felt slightly annoyed , like you were talking to a brick wall. Dean came strolling back in the room and smiled at the three of them.

"No demons" He said , smiling sarcastically at Sammy for making him stand out there like an idiot. "Where you trying to get with this girl instead of me?"

Sam scoffed at Dean. "You dont even know her name!"

"Standing right here , remember?"

Castiel cleared his throat. "I can sense something"

All three of them turned to Castiel. "What?" Dean said with somewhat attitude.

You breathe out and you catch Castiels gaze looking straight at you, or rather into you. "What?" You repeated Deans words.

Castiel was in your mind again , you were confused and slightly scared. Flashes of unknown memories was fast forwarding through your mind and Castiel seemed to be looking through your memories like missed file cabinets being sorted. You close your eyes for a second. You open them now and gasp. Dean grabs you and wraps his arms around your waist as you turn around to face him.

Looking around as Dean held you , Castiel disappeared. Your eyes fell heavy again and you fainted in Deans arms. Even though you fainted for a short amount of time you could feel yourself in Deans muscley arms , he lay you on the floor and kissed you on the cheek.

Those blue eyes stook out in your mind , Castiel was still roaming , looking for answers. You begin to think that maybe you werent yourself and the demons had taken over you , but then you realised that would be impossible. Like before you began to think you knew more of these hunters but then how did you know they were hunters?

Dean and Sam looked at your cold and motionless body on the floor. Castiel had been gone a while now and they waited. No sign of any demons accured to them. Your eyes underneathe your eyelids moved like crazy and your left and slightly twitching where the cut was.
 
"I've managed to get through the burried memories" A voice said , a very familiar voice. It was Castiel. He was in your mind of course. You couldnt reply and you didnt know why , things werent making any sense.

"I think I may have triggered some kind of trap in your mind, I realise now that I should never have meddled with your human mind"

The word 'human' took you for a fool , of course Castiel was non human you could see it but you felt as though he was treating you like a puppet when he said 'human' its like calling a dog 'mutt' because it didnt fit in. You felt more emotional than usual too, you felt that slight annoyance because you couldnt remember.

"A trap that defines your true self , I cant help you. You have already become infected" You started getting angry on the inside , felt like bursting out in rage but you couldnt even open your eyes. Already he had called you 'human' like you were some kind of experiment. Now he was saying you were infected.

Infected ....... you felt calmer as you thought about it , Castiel was pacing through your mind , you could hear his mind ticking throughout yours. Without realising you mentioned about demons taking over your mind and then you realised. Thats what Castiel does. You could see it. You needed to get up and ask questions but how?"

"What do we do?" Asked Sammy , pulling up a chair that was damp and barely stable. He sat on it , feeling uneasy about the floorboards giving away. Dean sat cross-legged on the floor , beside you. He could see that you were trying to get free and open your eyes.

"Where's Cas , its been ages?" Dean ignored Sam.

Sam sighed. "Do you think she remembers?"

Dean looked over his shoulder to Sam. "You think you do?"

Sam rolled his eyes. "I'm starting to but its like we came here for a reason and I cant remember"

Dean looked back at you on the floor. "I know the feeling"

Castiel appeared again , Sam and Dean heard the shuffle of his wings. "I've got a plan but its not going to be easy"

Sam and Dean looked at Castiel as he walked over to them. He then knelt down next to Dean , looking at you.

Dean looked across his shoulder to Castiel , he gave him a squinted look. "What plan?"

Castiel grunted. "A demon is possessing '_____' , for some reason the demon is finding it hard but it wont be long before she tries to kill us"

Sam raised an eyebrow. "So we have to before she does"

Dean put his hands up in surrender. "Wait .... wait , wait. We cant kill her if shes still human"

Castiel put his hand on Deans shoulder. " We have to" Dean took two looks at Castiels hand on his shoulder and shoved it off. "Get off me!" He stood up and walked over to the door and started to pace.

Sam clapped his hands together. "Are we going to do it whilst shes unconcious or...." He trailed off as Dean stared at him.

Castiel shook his head. "She's not unconcious , I put her to sleep and I have to wake her if she wants to open her eyes"

"Then do it!" Dean insisted raising his voice.

Sam frowned at Dean. "Since when do you care, you've only known her for like five minutes"

Dean shook his head. "It feels like longer"

Castiel looked at Dean over his shoulder. "Thats because you have. You both have"

Sam stood up from the chair , it fell to the floor in pieces , awkwardly Sam walked over to you , still on the floor unconcious.

"I knew it" Sam had to clear his head for a second , he put his hands through his hair. "But how?" Dean and Sam both glared at eachother.

"The demons been eating away her memories of us so that she could get to us, I could sense that she was scared of me when I went into her mind"

Deans eyes widened. "Like a tumor?"

Castiel nodded. "She's scared of me because demons are"

Sam sighed. "So we've got to do it then"

Dean was obviously still confused. "How come we cant remember?"

"Maybe because as soon as he stepped through this door we knew all along , we forgot who she truly was" Sam suggested. Dean stared at Sam , it was like his brother had become some kind of emotional freak.

"No chick flick moments" Dean added.

Castiel stroked your hair as you 'slept'. "That seems reasonable , I couldnt seem to reach what she meant to us. Maybe she was a fellow hunter?"

Dean smirked. "She would have made a good one"

Sam hiccuped a breath. "What makes you so sure?"

"We need to wake her up" Castiel said.

Dean looked conciously at you. "What happens if it had already reached her"

Sam nodded at Castiel. "Then we need to take that chance"

End of this part ~Laurenthebumblebee.